Hi moonthatshe loves.
I really appreciated your honest questions. There's good advice here about choosing a Bible translation.
I personally struggled a lot in the past with the image of God as exclusively male, and I've been a churched Christian all of my life. I can imagine how hard it must be coming from a pagan and goddess-oriented background to step into what many see as a patriarchal religion.
I believe that God does not have genitalia, and that his personality covers the spectrum of what we think of as male and female traits. We know that he refers to himself as our Father, and that he sent his Son to live on Earth as a human male. However, there are also many images of God in the Bible in which he is referred to as a female. This page has some of them: http://www.womensordination.org/pages/art_Images
as does this one: http://www.pngoc.com/content.php?r=&c=57
and this website http://www.cbeinternational.org/new/fre ... cles.shtml
has many scholarly articles on that topic, as well as other topics. I would take all of these materials and prayerfully sift through them, always submitting yourself to God's truth above any human research and bias. As in everything that originates with humans, there is error in Christian perspective, too.
Did you know that one of the names of God that he gives us as revelation of himself is El Shaddai? It means the many breasted one. This article talks about it about halfway down: http://www.wineskins.org/filter.asp?SID ... co_key=462
I should also add that my struggle with a patriarchal God and church and submission issues (I knew the Bible was truth, but had a hard time with certain things nonetheless) ended, ironically, with a book called Liberated Through Submission http://www.amazon.com/Liberated-Through ... 1565077202
I learned to see gender roles in human life as just that - roles
that are assigned to us, not to make us inferior or superior, but to allow us to function together. The book explains that everybody on earth is part of a hierarchy of authority and submission, including men. It's really very interesting and.... liberating.
At the center, though, is Christ. As you pursue truth, I hope you will not allow a side issue to detract from your pursuit of the Biblical CHRIST. Whatever your questions may be, when you you have Him in focus, those questions and answers will lead you into a greater love relationship with Him.
I'm so happy for you in your new faith!